I’m a part of a program that is required for us to fundraise money. This allows us to step outside of our comfort zones and to step outside of the box on how we can raise the money. But during the duration of the time where we were assigned to fundraise the money to the day where we should turn in the money we raised, I realized that I’m still trying to get out of my comfort zone.
I asked my Aunt last minute on how I’m fundraising money for the program I’m in and she sent me this message:
“I hope you learned your lesson here and that is to seek help. One cannot live life without asking for help and you have to give persons time to help you.”
What she said sent a shock to my body. It showed me that I had a lot of evolving to do.
I realized that I have a deep, hidden weakness I don’t share with anyone. It is the weakness that my Aunt clearly saw in my message to her.
I don’t like asking for help. Even if I have no clue on the matter and definitely need some help—I won’t ask for it.
I don’t know if others may think that’s a weakness. But if others are willing to give me a hand and all I needed to do was ask. Then I guess that leaves me in the wrong.
I don’t know if after that exchange, if that’s going to make me ask for help more. But it’s a start. At least I’m aware of it now.
I just hate the feeling of being vulnerable and the feeling of not knowing anything. So when I ask for help, it shows that I don’t know and that I am opening myself up for ridicule and criticism. And I hate that feeling.