I am swallowing my pride to write this post. I keep having reoccurring thoughts.
The thoughts I’m having stems from the fact that I’m not dating anyone.
I’m not looking for a long-term relationship as of yet. But if I meet someone and it leads to that, then I’m fine with that. The problem I’m having is that I don’t even have anyone to even date or talk to. Is that even a problem?
How much of my time is too much of my time? I spend a lot of time alone on a daily basis. I do enjoy my alone time. But life is all about balance. When I’m done recharging my energy in my alone time, whom can I exert that energy onto?
Is being too selective with my energy getting the best of me? These are the reoccurring thoughts I’ve been having lately. I don’t want to think about them. But here they are creeping back to me every chance they get.
I’m internally debating whether it’s a personal issue or a societal issue. Am I not with anyone because I am too different or do I have issues in the past and/or in my childhood that I need to resolve?
I don’t know, but I always reflect on myself to see what I can find. Since I’m usually alone, I always have the time to be introspective.