I love rainy days

I love rainy days because it forces me to reflect on my life. In my solitude, I can finally read that book I wanted to read. I can write what I wanted to write when I was busy. I can meditate more. I can relax more.

The rain brings a soothing feel to me. I start to feel calm whenever I hear the rain pouring. I love that feeling.

Some people get angry when it starts to rain, maybe because their plans are ruined. But when it rains, my plans have just begun.

Everything I wanted to do but couldn’t because of the tasks of what needed to be done in the external world can finally be done because of the rain.

When it rains, some plans may get canceled. But the tasks that need be done in my internal world finally gets completed.

The flowers bloom after it rains, and so do I.

Thank you rain.


Conflicting Thoughts

Is it mandatory to go to college nowadays? It sometimes looks like it is. I caught myself thinking what my life would have been like if I chose not to attend college. When I began thinking, I didn’t know where to start. Is the matrix/system that strong enough to force you to do something it wants you to do?

Force is probably a strong word, but then again it isn’t. When I say ‘force’ in regards to the system, my meaning of force is how societal pressures implicitly push us to do what they want us to do. “They” can be anyone who imposes their conflicting ideas on you.

I was thinking like this today because I was dreading the thought of going to class. I don’t know if the feeling came to me naturally because I was annoyed or is it the fact that deep down inside – I don’t want to be here?

Then the question came to me, “If I don’t want to be here, then what should I do?” It seems like society created a college-or-die atmosphere.