Sometimes I wish I was granted one wish. My wish would be to have more time.
But if I was granted that time, would I cherish the time that I’m already given?
I guess not.
That’s the beauty of only being granted 24 hours and a limited time to live on this planet. It forces me to do what I want to do NOW.
Not tomorrow or another time. NOW!
I have many projects to complete and my mind have been clouded my doubt, disappointment, and stress.
What I do to power through it is to breathe deeply, treat myself to food, and watch some Vedic astrology videos as a reward for all that I’ve done.
I’m doing the best that I can. Sometimes I don’t think I’m doing enough.
Usually doing your best is enough.
Give yourself a pat on the back.
*Pats myself on the back*
I felt my obsession coming on for this music artist I’ve been listening to. Then I wondered, why am I not obsessed with myself like I am with the other crushes I had and the one I’m currently having.
I’m going to make a conscious effort to ONLY think about myself. Yes that sounds conceited, but I hate giving away my energy to people who don’t deserve it or to people who don’t know who I am. I physically stopped going on social media networks for entertainment because it occupied a lot of my time. Now I need to stop wasting my time mentally.
Even though I’m not on social media as much like before, I’m still occupied by my thoughts. I’m either daydreaming or just plain thinking about anything that comes to mind.
I need to think about the now and the present – nothing else.
I don’t like how colleges place the social life on a pedestal. If you keep to yourself, you’re weird or odd. You know what’s weird? Talking to random people and having meaningless conversations with them. How do y’all do it? Don’t you feel tired giving yourself to other people like that? How can you share an interaction with someone without giving them the time to know your flaws, what makes you happy, and what leaves you disappointed?
When I talk to someone, I don’t want to be used as a pawn for shallow conversation to make the time go by. That’s plain rude. Just talking to someone because you’re “bored” is an awful way to engage in communication. And I feel that I’ve been a victim of someone talking to me because they were bored.